Traveling in France, there has been a voice in the back of my head nagging me to “make the most of it.” It tells me to go and see all the sites, to go and talk to strangers, to introspect and “reflect” on where I’m at in life.
"When inspiration strikes, I act; when ennui sets in, I rest; when desire comes, I thirst; and when there’s pain, I grieve."
"With a good rhythm, harmony with others becomes possible. But for me to make music, I must be OK with dissonance. I am still developing my style."
These are very wise words. I have often pondered upon similar questions in bouts of frustration. There is a part of me that wants to be proactive in trying to get the things that I want, and then there is a part that knows that things will happen at their own pace. Finding love or the right travel destination are some things that you cannot force because there is no formula for them. The best things will happen to you when you least expect them.
All one can do is be receptive to it. Ride the flow, and it will take you to places beyond your wildest imaginations.
"When desire comes, I thirst." What a great line. So much of what we suffer from is not letting ourselves to thirst for a bit!!!
What you said about the expectations about doing everything even though you didn't really want to or taking tons of pictures even though it's not necessary. That's the same realization I had when I wrote, "Private Pleasures, Public Pressures."
An excerpt:
"If Loduvica were to share the depths of her joy and pain, she fears others may try to tell her how to feel again, robbing her of the pure fulfillment that came with them. In a world of constant chatter and display, private people are often the ones who truly sway.
Ludovica understood the danger of sharing her innermost thoughts and experiences, so she kept her dreams, regrets, happiness, and pain in a dark and quiet place where they could flourish and take root without a trace of outside influence or judgment. They stay pure and true, just like the feelings born anew.
Now Ludovica knows the secret to true satisfaction, which lies not in chasing external reactions but in finding inner action."
It's a satisfying realization because it's when you realize that in order to fully enjoy something it has to be private away from the judgments, perceptions, comments, and expectations of others.
When I wrote that essay, I thought about stopping writing the newsletter and any other similar channel. Anyways this is what I wrote:
"Writing this story made me think about this newsletter because when I write it, I share, and when I share, I lose that which I most wanted to keep treasured: my obsessions.
It's a tough challenge because I want to share the excitement, but I never wish to create envy or prove to myself that what I'm doing is worthy. I simply want to play and find new depths.
But I'm afraid I'm betraying the very essence of the experience by trading its unadulterated authenticity for a hollow performance.
The beauty of a private experience is that it's solely for you to savor - a secret treasure of emotions and sensations that are not diluted by the expectations and judgments of others. It's the moment when you can immerse yourself fully in the present, unhindered by the desire to perform for an audience.
One option would be to renounce, and another would be to create a pseudonym. Perhaps, it's too early to be sharing and writing, and maybe I should only come back after ten or twenty years.
I don't want to stop because I enjoy it. But is it the right type of enjoyment? Is it the one that aligns most with what I want to do? Is it the right type of enjoyment?
That is the question."
Keep thinking and living for yourself and for yourself, only, Mr. Ian Brown.
What this made me think of is this: there are some ideas/thoughts that aren’t ready for primetime. These are “delicate” thoughts--they require further cultivation before they’re ready to be shared. But there’s also another class of thoughts: those which are more mature--those which need feedback from the external world before they take over our minds. It is these thoughts that we ought to write about. We keep the delicate ones private, for they are uniquely our own and can be easily destroyed. But the stronger ones, those must be run through others who share our values, lest they might consume and destroy us. They become too believable, too persuasive. I believe that this is one of the main reasons we must write.
Interesting. The other half. Ed Catmull has this concept of ugly baby and hungry beast. Ugly baby are these initial ideas and the hungry beast are these ideas ready to get feedback.
"When inspiration strikes, I act; when ennui sets in, I rest; when desire comes, I thirst; and when there’s pain, I grieve."
"With a good rhythm, harmony with others becomes possible. But for me to make music, I must be OK with dissonance. I am still developing my style."
These are very wise words. I have often pondered upon similar questions in bouts of frustration. There is a part of me that wants to be proactive in trying to get the things that I want, and then there is a part that knows that things will happen at their own pace. Finding love or the right travel destination are some things that you cannot force because there is no formula for them. The best things will happen to you when you least expect them.
All one can do is be receptive to it. Ride the flow, and it will take you to places beyond your wildest imaginations.
Looking forward to the next one.
"When desire comes, I thirst." What a great line. So much of what we suffer from is not letting ourselves to thirst for a bit!!!
What you said about the expectations about doing everything even though you didn't really want to or taking tons of pictures even though it's not necessary. That's the same realization I had when I wrote, "Private Pleasures, Public Pressures."
An excerpt:
"If Loduvica were to share the depths of her joy and pain, she fears others may try to tell her how to feel again, robbing her of the pure fulfillment that came with them. In a world of constant chatter and display, private people are often the ones who truly sway.
Ludovica understood the danger of sharing her innermost thoughts and experiences, so she kept her dreams, regrets, happiness, and pain in a dark and quiet place where they could flourish and take root without a trace of outside influence or judgment. They stay pure and true, just like the feelings born anew.
Now Ludovica knows the secret to true satisfaction, which lies not in chasing external reactions but in finding inner action."
It's a satisfying realization because it's when you realize that in order to fully enjoy something it has to be private away from the judgments, perceptions, comments, and expectations of others.
When I wrote that essay, I thought about stopping writing the newsletter and any other similar channel. Anyways this is what I wrote:
"Writing this story made me think about this newsletter because when I write it, I share, and when I share, I lose that which I most wanted to keep treasured: my obsessions.
It's a tough challenge because I want to share the excitement, but I never wish to create envy or prove to myself that what I'm doing is worthy. I simply want to play and find new depths.
But I'm afraid I'm betraying the very essence of the experience by trading its unadulterated authenticity for a hollow performance.
The beauty of a private experience is that it's solely for you to savor - a secret treasure of emotions and sensations that are not diluted by the expectations and judgments of others. It's the moment when you can immerse yourself fully in the present, unhindered by the desire to perform for an audience.
One option would be to renounce, and another would be to create a pseudonym. Perhaps, it's too early to be sharing and writing, and maybe I should only come back after ten or twenty years.
I don't want to stop because I enjoy it. But is it the right type of enjoyment? Is it the one that aligns most with what I want to do? Is it the right type of enjoyment?
That is the question."
Keep thinking and living for yourself and for yourself, only, Mr. Ian Brown.
What this made me think of is this: there are some ideas/thoughts that aren’t ready for primetime. These are “delicate” thoughts--they require further cultivation before they’re ready to be shared. But there’s also another class of thoughts: those which are more mature--those which need feedback from the external world before they take over our minds. It is these thoughts that we ought to write about. We keep the delicate ones private, for they are uniquely our own and can be easily destroyed. But the stronger ones, those must be run through others who share our values, lest they might consume and destroy us. They become too believable, too persuasive. I believe that this is one of the main reasons we must write.
I really like this idea, never thought about this purpose of writing, to get help from peers to rein in your own thoughts
Interesting. The other half. Ed Catmull has this concept of ugly baby and hungry beast. Ugly baby are these initial ideas and the hungry beast are these ideas ready to get feedback.
I think this framework works with people too